drains

In life, there are different types of drains.  There are emotional ones, physical ones, spiritual ones, etc.  basically anything that leaves you feeling less than prime is a drain.  Currently I am experiencing some drains in my life.  I haven’t been keeping ahead of assignments, that much, so today I was faced with completing two larger-ish projects, that seemed insurmountable.  Thankfully, I have a Father in heaven who helps me with keeping my head level, and so today ended up going smoother then I first thought.  I was able to finish my ENGL 101 assignment in record time, and I feel like I did a pretty good job on it, I guess I’ll only know for sure once I get my grade back.   I am looking forward to visiting my Alma Mater sometime soon, hopefully.  Well, back to the books I go!  Still have a BIOL lab due, but I’m waiting on my dear friend to help me figure out what to do for that…Once he can get focused I’m sure I’ll figure it out, with his help, in no time!

It’s been a while…

Wow, I hadn’t realized how long it’s been since I last posted.  So, for the sake of my dear friends I suppose I should update this.  June 19th was my graduation day, and boy was it exciting, but now the reality of heading off to college is hitting me, and that excitement is unsure of itself.  I honestly don’t know whether I’m excited about the prospects of moving on in life, or if I am merely anticipating the joy of parting so that meeting is that much sweeter.  I have changed my mind about a thousand times already with regards to my major, and I just hope I can actually finish one degree before I decide to start another!  Not that being in school for the rest of my life would be a trial, in fact, it would be wonderful.  Nevertheless, I know my parents are expecting em to do something more than school the rest of my life, and while they are more than happy to pay for college tuition, after 6 or so years they may start to object.  Well, packing boxes are calling my name, so I better get busy doing that instead of updating y’all on my superly fascinating life!

senior life

so, it’s been a while eh?  haha, yeah…well, school started this year on august 23, with great anticipation.  classes have been a blast, i’m taking bio, m&f, english, and p.e. this semester.  they’re all pretty easy classes, except for english, we have a term paper that’s due fairly soonish…and i haven’t done anything with it yet.  anyways, scholastically we’re doing great!  and spiritually…the seniors had senior survival this past weekend, pure fun.  we bonded so much as a class, and really came to appreciate one another.  we also al grew immensely closer to God, which is fantastic!  i do believe our class may be leaders looked up to yet!  Jesus is my bestest friend ever, and my only love.  as long as i have Him in my life, i need no other.  spiritually i’m doing wonderful!  physically, i’m kinda tired.  the weekend drained me, partially cause we had to go 24 hrs with no food…although that wasn’t too much of a trial, it was more the restless nites.  i mean, i got roughly 4 hrs of sleep a nite, but it wasn’t restful since i’m highly claustrophobic and our shelter was small for the 3 people we had in it.  and plus, i was squished against the slanted outside edge…anyways, so i’m really tired right now, and trying to get climatized back to normal without tons of layers.  emotionally…haha.  i’m actually not too much of a wreck right now.  i mean, there’s stuff on my mind that’s sorta stressful, but i can have way more peace cause i take it to God whenever it comes up.  so, i’m doing pretty good that way, i’m fairly stable… although, at times it feels like i just am due for a good cry, cause i haven’t had one for a very long time…anyways, socially….lol…what a loaded word!  friendships this year are actually quite good.  you know summer memories are mostly just memories, but they’re fun to hang on to…i’ve really enjoyed getting to know the new girls & guys…we have an awesome bunch this year, and we’ve all gotten to know each other quite well even though we’re only a month in!! i’ve really had a good time renewing the friendships that were forged last year and the year before, and really growing them and strengthening them.  i just love being here, and having God as my #1.  anyways, bed is sounding really good right about now, i just decided to update this thing since i realized how long it’s been…nite! sweet dreams!

update

so, i went to GC on june 29, got back last nite, and have been so busy i haven’t had time to do anything!  i had such a good time there, it was just so amazing and powerful, and awe-inspiring.  apparently my face showed all these things very clearly…lol.  as much as i had dreaded certain aspects, it turned out to not be so annoying as i had thought.  i got to know some new people, and get even closer to old friends.  the meetings were very powerful, and it was a huge blessing to be there, and also be a part of it.  i was truly inspired, humbled, and up-lifted.  my fav moments:  thursday morning at the delegates meeting/debate; friday nite, getting to sing our song; and saturday nite, the bittersweet good-byes; and throughout the whole time, the escorts to the hotel, and the hanging out & talking with friends.  i’m so very glad i went, and didn’t let my fears and annoyances keep me back.  anyways, i’m very happy i get to go hang out at the halls place tonite, it’ll be a blast, jess and i are celebrating July 1 and July 4…yeah, i know, we’re weird.  but at least we have fun!

ahhh, FA life!

lol, so last nite i didn’t get to bed until late.  so much for getting plenty of sleep!  then i overslept this morning and only woke up when jenny came to my room saying that there was 5 mins til work started.  i freaked cause i thought i was working MG or something like that.  i ran down after throwing clothes on and found out i was working music, and that i could’ve slept in this morning.  that’s all fine and dandy, except i can’t get back to sleep once i’m out of bed.  so i worked in the office some, and ran down to the studio as well to tidy up.  wow, the memories that i have in both studios…it was overwhelming, especially since i might never get to have the opportunity to share moments again…oh well, i fought back the emotions and went to work, as all strong people do.  i’m trying so hard to not be dependent, i really don’t want to ever rely on someone else for my happiness, but that sometimes means not having as close of friends.  i don’t want that though, so i’m struggling with finding that balance.  one day i will get this.  so anyways, i took this afternoon off, and got laundry done and sorta pick out what clothes to pack.  it’s kinda difficult though since mom and cass are bringing out more of my clothes, and i’m borrowing some of cassie’s stuff for GC, so i don’t even know what will go with that.  oh well, i’ll do some quick packing again!  lol, i just hope i don’t forget anything important.  i think i’ll go make a list right now actually… have a great evening!

internet annoyances

well, i must say that iPrism is starting to get on my nerves…we had facebook for a few days, and now with a new iPrism installed, we no longer have it.  i guess bert forgot to unblock it again…so i’m back to the land of getting notifications by email and being frustrated cause i can’t actually see what’s happening.  anyways, this weekend was a BLAST!!!!  we went to the lake, and even though it was super windy friday and sabbath, this morning it was like glass.  oh, and since it was a smaller group, the staff were way less strict.  so friday nite we went on a night hike, with no lights…it was a really cool experience, and made me realize a few things.  then on sabbath we went hiking up a creek, literally.  we were in the water most of the time, and so before we left a staff person said to wear ‘flips-flops, or something you can get wet’.  well, all i brought was flip-flops, and since they were added to the list of acceptable footwear i assumed (bad choice) it would be an easy walk.  but no, i had to be wrong!  we went up quite a ways, and my flip-flops broke while we just started heading back, so i got to go barefoot the whole way down the creek.  it was an unforgettable experience, my feet are still feeling it.  anyways, in keeping with the excitement of the weekend, this morning i wasn’t going to go skiing, or get in the water at all.  but after watching jess having fun, i decided on spur of the moment to go for a bit.  so i jumped in, wearing my regular clothes…still can’t believe i did that, but hey, it was worth it!  it was beautiful out, and i’m so glad i went then and could dry off before we had to pack up.  i was gonna try going on one ski, but didn’t want to get in the water in case i fell.  so yeah, that was my exciting weekend, and i wish i could get on facebook, but i’ll live without it.  i get to see most people at GC anyways.  so i’m gonna get ready for supper, and oh yeah, pack for GC!  w00t!

summertime!

and so another exciting school year comes to a close.  last year was awesome, i have very amazing memories, and i’m not sure i’ll be able to keep them all in my brain, but i sure hope so!  some bad times as well, but true friends ride over the bumps.  it’s so weird being here at school still, it feels like i should be somewhere else, but i’m not.  it so odd being the one left, and not leaving until GC, even then i’m still coming back!  it’s really nice though, i only have to work 4 hrs a day, anything above that helps pay off my tuition for next year, since i’m not working off any debts.  so today i worked for 7 1/4 hrs, it was great, i got to do a bit of driving, and a lot of cleaning.  this morning was a lot more work physically, but this afternoon i struggled to stay awake.  anyways, right now i’m heading off to the gym to workout with sophia, i’m on my way to my goals!!! lol, have a great summer, i’ll try and keep this posted, but we’re getting facebook unblocked so i’ll be on there mostly.  make a great summer!!

overwhelmed

so pretty much, i have too much on my plate right now.  things keep piling up, and i’m not sure where to file them away, or what to do with them.  all i know is that right now, my brain is working on half-time.  i’m really concerned about some friends, they have an awful lot on their mind, i don’t know what i can do to help except pray.  so we’ll just say that for the past while my prayer list has been full of urgent requests.  i’m also worried about family, they are all so dear to me, and i really miss them all. wow, i just ordered my pics to be printed…now i’m getting them picked up tomorrow, and i have to write on them and hand them out before grad…this will be fun!!!  urgh, well, i better get back to class, and hopefully everything will be ok.  have a great day!!

we’ll have fun, fun, fun…

well, i’ve ben kept very busy with recording.  not just that, but my brain is trying to wrap around the schedule change…it’s a little much for me to handle, but this weekend i’ll be able to relax and enjoy myself. i can’t wait, and i’ve been praying that daddy will come out with cassie and join me at seton.  we’ll see though, whatever’s best.  anyways, back to recording.  i really do not like getting recorded.  i know i’m terrible at playing the clarinet and making music come from it, but nobody seems to realize that, or at least nobody will tell me.  i like being able to be ‘with’ the others though, it’s fun to be part fo the project…but i get so lonely and bored while we’re working cause i’m all by myself in a room and i can hear everyone, but can’t join in…oh well, it’s all for a good cause, and i can’t wait til the project is finished.  i had so much fun during our break today, and during lunch.  we played soccer, and it was really fun to be able to run around like a ‘crazy woman’, as i was called.  i just really enjoy getting out and running around, and having fun!!  lol, i always feel bad though when i accidentally hurt people while playing.  it’s not like i go through a game without getting hurt either, but everyone seems to think my goal of playing is to cause pain.  anyways, i’ve rambled on long enough, i should start paying full attention to class, it might be important….lol.  have a wonderful day!!!!!!

another day, another way

well, today is not the most exciting day ever…i’m super tired, and not too emotional.  i feel like a dead nail.  lol. anyways, school is boring, work has lost its luster, and social wise, not too intersting.  but that’s ok.  i had enough fun to last me a while at the picnic, i just wish i could work cafe at least once a week.  oh well, i doubt that’ll happen, so i’ll just keep dreaming.  i’ve gotta go though and get to my highly thrilling,, fast-paced job that  only i can do before i’m late.  not that anyone would ever know, but still, i’m never late and don’t wish to be.   have a marvelous day!